I have been living in joy since the start of the year. What joy! How many intimate lessons by Jesus in my long nights as a sick person! What love! Since the night between the second and third day of January his hand has removed from me that agony which yielded to nothing in my stomach and then.... This morning the sweet parable of the two lights. But if He had not ordered me to write it, I would not have written it. He is now giving me many secret and very gentle lessons, but says it is useless for me to write them. And I obey.280
280 We omit about thirteen handwritten pages containing Azariah’s commentary on Masses for the Sunday of the Holy Family, for the octave of the Epiphany, and for the Second Sunday after the Epiphany.