Because of a silly accident, I had to tear out and recopy the unpresentable page, ruined as it is. Never mind!
I corrected the first section of the Directions. On page 1, dated October 5, 1945, I found a text affirming that I no longer enjoyed the visions after I had seen them, whereas in the previous months I had also enjoyed them after the act of seeing had been completed and concluded. Indeed! Then, in September and October, it was exactly like that. A case of diabolical oppression to disturb me and make me discouraged. An attempt by Satan to produce agitation and depression. But it stopped after Extreme Unction and never came back.
Many things stopped after Extreme Unction. I was convinced even before. Even before I recommended that this great help providing such peace not be taken away from the dying. But I said so only because I had faith. Now I say so from experience. And I will say so to those dealing with the seriously ill. And I will leave word of this. Fortify, fortify spirits in the struggles of agony with this Sacrament. Bring peace! Bring liberation, far away from the Enemy!
And now? The “defeated” one, using men as his accomplices, is trying to take me back to the. doubt and discouragement of the summer months. Well then? I entrust myself to God! If He does not want my desolation - and I, too, will fight to reject the mists of Satan brought forth to hide Light and Truth from me - Light and Truth will not fade from my horizon. If God does not so will and I hope in Him alone, the men who do not hear God and do not respect God in his manifestations will be left defeated, together with their “tempter:” And the day will finally come when they can no longer harm me.
I persistently recall all of Jesus’ dictations, the far-sighted and providential dictations by Jesus, from July 1943 on, concerning the need for silence regarding the spokesman and the dictated pages to bring peace to the spokesman himself as long as he lived so that he would not be disturbed and his work would not be exposed to snares. “Only when these eyes and these hands, which now see and write, are in the tomb shall you make his mission known.” This is more or less what He said....200 But because of a set of circumstances this order was not observed. I alone have always observed it, and I always will. The consequences of not having observed Jesus’ counsels to the letter are now being paid. I - who am not at all to blame - also pay. May God make up for human mischief!
My angel tells you, Father, that the Holy Masses for the “voic-es” are to be read and known only by my superiors and should not be disseminated for any reason to anyone until after my death. Accordingly, except for you and, of course, the Father General, the Procurator General, and the other priest who teaches a course on the Sacraments (if you agree),201 no one else should be familiar with them in Rome or elsewhere.
200 Similar words are found in the entry for August 23, 1943, in The Notebooks. 1943.
201 This is probably the first mention of Father M. Berti of the Servants of Mary, Professor of Sacramental Theology, who would later play a considerable role in attending to Maria Valtorta’s writings. He died in 1980.